For the future project, I promised my self not to work directly on the material. I want to print on the material. It's an incredibly hard work to paint directly on the material. It's zen, it's saving, but it's too hard. Too much time on it. But I can not help my self. I can not help my self to not like it. I'm attracted to painting directly on the material. What can I do? I'm attracted by the brush. I'm attracted by this particularly sensation you have when you paint. The state it gives me both in my body and  my mind.